Blog revisions

If you haven't noticed I have spent a lot of time recently on my blog. Additions across the board, and now I have another.

I have embedded an RSS feed from CNN in the upper right corner. It will cycle through the Top Stories being displayed on the website. The feed will have the last 5 stories listed.

Also there is, unfortunately, advertisements now on my page. Good news is that I hid it in the bottom right hand corner. It is easy money, wouldn't all of you put it on your blog as well? :)

Last addition is to the other blogs I have running linked on the right. Both of them are being updated daily or every other day and also match this page. Each will have an RSS feed from a site on a similar topic.

Enjoy...and keep watching for more updates.

Dashboard Confessional

I think it is time for an attaboy for the Dashboard Confessional. This is hands down my favorite band. Only band that is versatile enough to go back and forth 100% between full band sound and acoustic. Never loosing a beat or note in the transition.

Dashboard Confessional

Check out their site to see their newest music. It is back to the full band sound and is wonderfully done. Dusk & Summer and Stolen are going to join Screaming Infedelities and Brilliant Dance as some of their best.

Music

More I kept looking at my blog more I finally realized that I was too quiet.

So here you go all...finally some music.

Inside of the "LINKS" column on the right I'll post a Music Video. I'll change it up regularly. Since it is the link section though click on the link above the music video to jump your way over to the site where I find all my videos.

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Employed

So I am finally employed again. Wow I'm not going to be broke anymore. I start on November 6, 2006 at Verizon Wireless. Training is gonna suck at 8 hours a day 5 days a week for 3 weeks in Beaverton. But come on I know enough already about VZW and their phones I can probably coast. Anyway...all you out there with VZW or that need new phones hit me up :)

PREGNANT!

SO HI EVERYONE IT IS OFFICIAL. FOR THOSE FEW OF YOU THAT ACTUALLY READ THIS I THOUGHT I WOULD LET YOU ALL KNOW.

I'M OFFICIALLY GOING TO BE A DADDY!!! GOT TIL THE FIRST WEEK OF JUNE OR SO BEFORE BABY IS ACTUALLY BORN...BUT NOW I GET TO PREPARE CAUSE WOOHOO! ;)

Goodbye MYSPACE!!!

That's right....I OFFICIALLY HATE MYSPACE.

I have pretty much shut mine down. I think it would be best if everyone did the same. Aside from the generic meeting up with old friends and expressing your personality, I think it is unnecessary.

I am shut mine down for the simply reason that I have come to the realization that I don't need to have everyone involved in my personal life. Majority of people don't truely care about you anyway. Out of them I now understand too that 90% or so will not even be around to care in a few more years. Those that honestly do care will check with you as a person...not your postings that just generalize.

Now that I needlessly vented you will understand why I have decided to kill MySpace.

Perceptions Of A True Self

Poetic expression in my opinion is one of the truest and most sincere ways of getting across emotions and feelings and views.

Here is the first poem I have written in a long time, with many to follow I suppose.


Perceptions Of A True Self
Traipsing through dreams of better times and hopes
I remember a time non existent and forgotten.
Feelings and emotions reaping pain and sorrow.
Why is the reward of not being a brute pure tragedy?

I can stop the hurt but at a loss of my true self.
All that matters is that I disguise my real self.
It isn’t important who you really are.
All the really matters is that you are who you are perceived.
Is that what we need?
Is that who you truly want to be?
I don’t need to feel because I am not me.
I just need to callous over my true self for everyone’s well being.

What if I was my true self?
Would it hurt if I was a true person?
For once in life I would just like to be the real me.
Poetry, words, and thoughts aside to ignore their feelings.
I write my words out as blood spelling my life on the paper.
The oxygen and life flowing out onto the sheets
To put my entire life on paper for all to read.
I can feel the fake me dying out for the real to surface.
Breaching the top as the real person gasps for breath.

A new chapter opens for life
But there is always a new chapter.
Chapter after chapter every day is opened.
None ever really close so I stay the same
As I have always been for everyone else.
I am what they want me to be for them.
Their convenience is the importance.
I just closet away my real self.
I store the true me for what they want
Because reality doesn’t matter anymore.
I hide in my made up world of a different self.

I am not as important as their feelings.
I am only here for their needs and hopes.
Time to hide again…time to repress the real me.
I can crawl in to that imitation of reality.
Hiding amongst their perceptions,
I put away what is real and important for everyone.
I become again what they want not reality.

Reality dies and is buried not 6 but 12 under.
I do the digging and burying this time and willing kill this self.